I am still alive

Those misbehaves, those hidden tears, those ignorance…. these are part of my life….everyday I come to a decision that… No I will destroy myself…but I have not that much courage… I know what is loneliness, what is rejection, what is favoritism, I know the real meaning of nepotism…yes I know. But I am still alive

No body never understand me…neither my family, nor some other…no…noone is on my side…everyone comes for a reason only…when they need me…I always there for them…but when I need someone????…I am fighting alone…It’s an lonely journey, there is no support, no love, no care…no….nothing…. Parents…ya they are the gift of god…but what about their favoritism… Your siblings…. what if you find someone who only hates you, insults you, making fun of you… Ya I have a disease… I know it…but it is not my werknees…..it hurts me…yes…it hurts me a lot….but you know what hurt you the most…the insults…that sentence….hey abnormal from your own siblings….see I am still alive, I am still smiling…a big smile….haha….I started to accepting these things….

It’s really not easy to carry a smile everyday…specially when you have no one to tell anything….when there is noone to support you…understand you…. Ya… Everyone is busy in their life…I m too…. May be one day I will find that much of courage…. So that I can destroy myself….but m I able to do that……………..

I know there are so many mistakes in this article…but I am not going to correct it…I am writing from the deep of my heart….let it be…❤❤❤….yes I am exist…yes I am still alive…. See I am smiling…..

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