Those misbehaves, those hidden tears, those ignorance…. these are part of my life….everyday I come to a decision that… No I will destroy myself…but I have not that much courage… I know what is loneliness, what is rejection, what is favoritism, I know the real meaning of nepotism…yes I know. But I am still alive
No body never understand me…neither my family, nor some other…no…noone is on my side…everyone comes for a reason only…when they need me…I always there for them…but when I need someone????…I am fighting alone…It’s an lonely journey, there is no support, no love, no care…no….nothing…. Parents…ya they are the gift of god…but what about their favoritism… Your siblings…. what if you find someone who only hates you, insults you, making fun of you… Ya I have a disease… I know it…but it is not my werknees…..it hurts me…yes…it hurts me a lot….but you know what hurt you the most…the insults…that sentence….hey abnormal from your own siblings….see I am still alive, I am still smiling…a big smile….haha….I started to accepting these things….
It’s really not easy to carry a smile everyday…specially when you have no one to tell anything….when there is noone to support you…understand you…. Ya… Everyone is busy in their life…I m too…. May be one day I will find that much of courage…. So that I can destroy myself….but m I able to do that……………..
I know there are so many mistakes in this article…but I am not going to correct it…I am writing from the deep of my heart….let it be…❤❤❤….yes I am exist…yes I am still alive…. See I am smiling…..
Here I have a family of 161…may be it will increase in future….happy to be a part of WordPress where I can write my emotions..my feelings..express thousands of words and you the beautiful people are here…beside me to encourage..to appreciate…hey, I adore you people…
Whoever is reading this post…A post of a girl..who has no idea about her life..about her goal…but yes..she always believes that…she has something in her heart…in her mind…a positive energy..which forced her to live unapologetically…She know she has to go for a mile…it’s just a beginning of a journey….she has to complete it anyhow…Thank you people…for your support…for not judging me…
To Dear #ladies🏵🏵, Today is woman’s day .. oppssss.. nohhhh ..then.. mother’s day or sister’s day… Noooo.. It’s just a normal day.. Here I am writing a letter to you all. A letter of success, a letter of strength, a letter of beauty, a letter of happiness, a letter of greetings. First of all I just want to say that isn’t it amazing, you are a beautiful creativity of god. You all are brave, you are strong, you are fierce… you are more than you think. No need to be a perfect one. You are already perfect in your imperfections. Sometimes it’s important to be messy, be crazy or be you.
You are skinny ? OK. You are chubby? OKkk. You are dark? OKayy. You are bright? OKkk. You are tall? OK OK. You are short? OKkkkkkkyyy….Don’t worry, these are just some words..above all these, you know, there are three magical words which define your soul beautifully and i.e “YOU ARE UNIQUE”. Have you ever think, you are a lovely daughter, a caring sister, a adorable & good student, an awesome friend, a helpful collogue, a responsible wife or daughter-in-law, a brave mother, as a whole you are an amazing human being. Those mood swings are beautiful, that monthly pain or that stain is beautiful, those scars are beautiful, those white hairs are beautiful, those stretch marks are beautiful. Actually you are beautiful in your own way. You are the joba, the narji, the beli, the gulapi, the Korobi, the gutimali, the kharikajai, the nayantara, the aparajita, the hunaru…… Just .. #take_care_of_yourself, #love_your_precious_soul, #make_it_happy, #keep_it_alive, #dream_big, #touch_your_goals, #listen_to_your_heart, #fight_for_your_right, #be_strong,#do_whatever_you_want… #be_the_wind #be_the_ocean #be_the_sky of your own. ❤❤❤❤
I still remember that beautiful day. We (ma, pita and i) were passing through the #Dihing_Patkai reserve. There is a small roadside market called “#Maya_Bazar”. You can find different kinds of local and fresh vegetables,local fish ect in that small market produced by the local farmers or villagers and their most of the customers are those visitors who passes through that reserve by personal vehicle.Whenever we pass through that market, my mom always buy something from that market. At that day I too went with my mom.When mom was busy buying vegetables.Suddenly I saw them( those two old smiling queens of my grandma’s age).They were in a very happy mood. The way they were smiling and talking with each others, they looked so beautiful. At that moment their smiling faces gave me a strange feeling in my heart..I also started to smile and took out my phone to capture those beautiful smiles. But, then I felt that, they may feel uncomfortable if I take their pictures without their permission. So I went to their stalls and asked them, “aita(grandma) can I click your pics?” They smiled and one of them asked me”Mai(dear),you want to click our pictures? Ahhh,we become old now” and they laughed. Again I requested them just one aita, your smile is so beautiful and I want to capture it on my phone,so can I?.” Then they said to me, “wait dear, let me make up my dress properly.OK…now you can click.” I smiled and said okkk.When I showed their beautiful pictures, they asked me “is it me, waw, I am looking so beautiful na?” I said yes, “dhuniya(beautiful) aita”. After all these, they asked my name,what I m doing these days,my address etc and touched my cheeks in a lovey way. I swear now I can’t express that feeling…..At that moment I felt that I know them for so many years. I also felt that their love was really pure and selfless.And ya…I must say that, it doesn’t matter who you are,from where you belong to,what is your status, it’s all about love,kindness, and selflessness which make you a great and awesome person..They had nothing to gave me, but they had so many things to share with me. After all they had a good and a big heart. The way they treated me, it was an undescribable feeling for me. Now I wonder,how they are surviving in this present situation.Because the source of their earning is also in a lockdown mood. #dhuniya_aita.